Today is the third day of this migraine and it’s still there in spite off all my medications. I’m so tempted to give in to depression and hopelessness. Last night, I cried for about twenty minutes out of sheer frustration for four years of seemingly unrelenting pain. I had lunch with a friend today, but I worry that I wasn’t great company.
Nonetheless, I choose joy over despair.
When I finish crying, I dry my tears knowing that Jesus himself suffered physical and emotional pain when He was here on Earth. Hebrews 4:15 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet was without sin.”
I will get up tomorrow and go on with a new day, even if I have to pray for God to get me through each minute.
I will love my husband and children with every bit of strength I have no matter how much pain I have.
I will love and trust God that He’s working all things together for His glory and my good. Acts 17:28 “For in Him, we live and move and have our being . . .”
I will pray.
I will thank God for these awful headaches because they have taught me to lean on Him every second since I have no strength of my own anymore (and, did I ever, really?).
I choose joy.