I Choose Joy

Today is the third day of this migraine and it’s still there in spite off all my medications. I’m so tempted to give in to depression and hopelessness. Last night, I cried for about twenty minutes out of sheer frustration for four years of seemingly unrelenting pain. I had lunch with a friend today, but I worry that I wasn’t great company.

Nonetheless, I choose joy over despair.

When I finish crying, I dry my tears knowing that Jesus himself suffered physical and emotional pain when He was here on Earth. Hebrews 4:15 “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet was without sin.”

I will get up tomorrow and go on with a new day, even if I have to pray for God to get me through each minute.

I will love my husband and children with every bit of strength I have no matter how much pain I have.

I will love and trust God that He’s working all things together for His glory and my good. Acts 17:28 “For in Him, we live and move and have our being . . .”

I will pray.

I will thank God for these awful headaches because they have taught me to lean on Him every second since I have no strength of my own anymore (and, did I ever, really?).

I choose joy.